Why is life a bitch? I hate exams. GAH GAH GAH. FUCK IT. GAH. Just want to curl up into a ball at the moment.
Apologies.
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
Bitten by a dog. Canine bastards
2. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
I have a Sony Ericsson K750i. So sexy
3. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
Anything
4. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
5 in the morning. I win
5. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Viki to love me, I guess. Or viki here to talk to, or go for a walk with or something. Just viki really
6. WHAT DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Her
7. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
My Guinness pint glass
8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
Viki
9. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Nope
10. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Why? It’s only dark
11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME TO WEAR?
CK Euphoria
12. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX?
Not fussed, it’s whats on the inside that counts
13. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
Well considering my gender, I would hope that I am doing the proposing…
14. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
Energy drinks, coffee is vile
15. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
I like most, but you can’t beat a good bit of pepperoni
16. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
A good bit of rib-eye steak, rare, with some nice fat chips. Brilliant
17. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
viki
18. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
Deutsch, Francais, Nihon-go
19. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)?
their heart.. i dont care about gifts or materials, the best gifts a) are free and b) you can’t see
20. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
I am the very situation described. So yes
21. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Do something original and meaningful. Like write a book with them as the main character. Or write them a poem. Or do a drawing.
22. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
22
23. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes.
24. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
I don’t really use the phone that often.
25. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
That i dont know how to solve my currentlife crisis and i’m afraid it may eat me alive
26. HAS ANYONE EVER SPIT ON U?
I don’t hang around with uncouth people
27. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Viki, Lindor and Football Manager
28. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST JOB?
LOL
29. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Yeah
30. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
What i am doing as i fill out this survey – listening to Blur
31. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Nose job, pure and simple. I HATE my nose
32. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
Cos i am really fucking bored.
33. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
My personality. Says a lot about my looks tbh :/
34. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
Cry, mostly. Then set up a home brewery to brew up some ’shine
35. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Happiness
36. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
One or two, if any
37. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nope. Saints i think. Samuel and Francis are both Saints.
38. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
Why would i do that?
39. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
that’s a retarded question
40. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
About a month and a half ago.
41. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yes. Shame no-one else can read it.
42. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Ham
43. ANY BAD HABITS?
Picking/biting my nails
44. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD YOU OWN?
Usher – Confessions
45. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Probably
46. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Not at all. People are beautiful on the inside. Watch “Shallow Hal” and you’ll see what I mean.
47. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I dont. I let it build up inside of me.
48. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
My dad’s house
49. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
Why not? I will only mistrust someone if they give me a reason to
50. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Tonka trucks and Tomy trains
51. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Yes
52. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
Yep.
53. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
You can’t “look” for anything. If you’re looking for something, then that’s wrong. It should just work. And if it doesnt, well then its not gonna happen.
54. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Dodge, Dodgy, Dodgy Dodgin, Sammy Dodger, Jammy Dodger, Dodgeman, Dodgemeister, Legs
55. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Depends which pair I’m wearing </tart>
56. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Haagen Dazs Banoffee Pie
57. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
Red
58. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
fucking no idea
59. WHO DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
Love
60. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Why not?
61. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Blur - No Distance Left To Run
62. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Dinner, which was pork chops, new potatoes, cabbage and peas
63. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Grandma called earlier
64. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE PREFERRED SEX?
Whether they are smiling or not
65. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Hammersmith, London
66. SCARIEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO YOU?
Nothing really
67. FAVORITE DRINK?
Guinness
68. FAVORITE JOKE?
I dont have one, one line jokes are hardly ever amusing, comedy should be more intelligent than that
69. FAVORITE SPORT?
Rugby is pretty good. Not that i play
70. YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Brown
71. YOUR EYE COLOR?
Blue
72. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
nope, but glasses are sexy
73. SIBLINGS?
1 younger half sister
74. FAVORITE MONTH?
November
75. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
What is the appeal of raw fish?
76. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
On tele – the news
on youtube – videos of “Terry Tate – Office Linebacker”
I also just saw my sisters school play
77. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR
There a number of days that are good. I would say any which i spend with viki
78. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
Yes completely. I have no idea how i end up in relationships (that makes it sound like i’ve had loads, when in reality i’ve about 3, and only one that’s actually gone somewhere)
79.SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter. I cannot stand heat
80. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
relationships
81. WHO DO YOU SECRETLY LOVE?
If i told, it would hardly be a secret
82. FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT?
Hallelujah – Jeff Buckley
83. LAKE OR OCEAN?
Ocean
84. BIGGEST TURNOFF?
too much make-up
85. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND:
Friday night
86. LAST KISS:
Last week
87. LAST TEXT YOU RECIEVED:
Tom G explaining his spaced addiction
88. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH:
Plenty, but i am in love and that makes any crush seem obsolete
89. DO YOU WISH YOU CAN SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW:
I want to see Viki to say to her that i am sorry for being me
90. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME:
Victoria
91. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENTED/ ARE ATTENDING:
AGS
92. WHERE ARE YOU NOW:
My room
93. ARE YOU SMILING:
If you were me, you wouldnt be smiling
94. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING:
A black guinness t-shirt, black levis
95. ARE YOU IN LOVE:
I dont know. Does being in love have to be mutual. If no, then yes i am, if yes, then i guess i’m not
96. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE
Downfall
97. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG:
Always “Hallelujah” by Jeff Buckley
98. WHEN WAS YOUR LAST RELATIONSHIP:
I’m in one now, i think
99. EVER BEEN DRUNK:
yes, many times. its brilliant
100. PLAN ON GETTING DRUNK SOON:
nope i was pissed last nite, to be pissed two nites in a row is just poor form
It is 11.30 on the night of Monday the 7th of May and I, Sam Dodgin, have come to a realisation.
I am a man well endowed with friends. However, amongst those friends there a few who stick out as being particularly special. These are people who I love unconditionally. Who I could never bear a grudge against, no matter what their crime. I love these people. I would forgive them for anything, just like I hope they would do the same.
Viki – Is my first love and possibly the most wonderfully brave person I have ever met. I love her with everything.
Jim – Is my best mate and a wonderful, wonderful one at that. I undervalue just what he means to me. I never resent spending time with him. He could sleep with my wife and I’d forgive him.
Caley – Is Jim’s girlfriend and someone who I have recently found myself growing very fond of. She is such a wonderful soul. Like I have repeated so many times, she is one of my best friends, and I will always be there for her.
Oli – Is the man. He has been my friend since I was 1. We don’t see each other that much, but it just means I appreciate and enjoy the times we do even more.
Joely – Is my support. The one person I can guarantee will give me sound advice and the one person who will always find time to give me said advice. I love her as well.
These are the people who make my life worth living. I thank them with all my heart.
Dodge xxx
I sometimes wonder why I’m failing at japanese. Then I realise the person to blame it not my self, but Frankie. Here’s the “work” we did today:
“Akikaze wa
Sasayaki dare
mayotta ai
the autumn breeze is but a whisper of a love lost its way
Akikaze wa
Mayotta ai no
Sasayaki ka
I wonder if the autumn breeze is a whisper of a love lost its way?
Rahrahrah\
Rahrarhrahrahrahr
Rarharharharh
My slitted wrists a forgotten memory of wasted youth ß LOLOLOLOL
THEY CALL IT A WASTELAND!
THEY CALL IT A WASTELAND, BABY!!!!!
True dat
“WE MIGHT UNDERSTAND
Death would be a beautiful long voyage
And an endless holiday for flesh structures and bones”
- Excerpt ‘The Death of Guillaume Appollonaire’ by Tristan Tzara
SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIICCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
Yes bled
I would like to be in her [inken]
Like, Totally
I liiiiiiiiiiiiiiike is nice
I VERY EXCITE”
There were images. But WordPress hates them. So you can’t see them.
Give me ideas as to what to talk about. Expect a video about 5-10 mins long during the easter holidays.
Love dodge x
Some of you may not know that my grandad and great-grandad both played professional football. Here are some things i found online that have interested me about them.
From Martin Tyler’s Q&A blog on Sky Sports.com:
Hi Martin, with Darren Ferguson taking the reins at Peterborough United, I was wondering if this is the first time a father and son have managed in the league at the same time? Dan Higgins, Dartford
MARTIN SAYS: It has happened on at least one occasion before Dan, and not only did the father and son in question manage at the same time, they also came up against each other in a game – albeit in the cup. In the 1970 FA Cup first round, Bill Dodgin Snr took his Bristol Rovers side to Fulham, who were managed by one Bill Dodgin Jnr. For the record dad got the upper hand with a 1-0 win and just to add a personal note, Bill Dodgin Snr took over the local sweet shop where I grew up in West Byfleet and on meeting my father – also a West Byfleet shopkeeper – and hearing about my love for football, promptly gave me a load of football programmes which I still have to this day!
From Arsenal.com:
BILL DODGIN
England U-23 centre-half Bill Dodgin starred as Arsenal finished third in the top-flight in 1958/59. Initially an amateur with Southampton, he followed his father of the same name to Fulham in September 1949 and joined Arsenal for £4,000 in December 1952. He twice helped the Gunners reach the FA Cup sixth round and made 191 First Division appearances before rejoining Fulham for £7,000 in March 1961, featuring in their 1961/62 FA Cup semi-final replay defeat. Subsequently coach at Millwall, he managed QPR, Fulham, Northampton Town (twice), Brentford and Woking, then was Brighton’s chief scout. He died in June 2000.
About Great-Grandad from Fulhamfc.com:
When the Second Division title was won, Fulham turned to Southampton, the team that was pipped at the post for promotion, for a new team manager.
Bill Dodgin had enjoyed a successful spell at the Dell since his appointment, his first as a manager, in June 1946. Before the war, he been a wing half with Huddersfield, Lincoln, Charlton, Bristol Rovers, Clapton Orient and Southampton, and at 39 years of age, he was not only one of Fulham’s youngest managers (about the same as Kelso and Ducat) but he was one of the youngest in the First Division.
He found it tough going. The Cottagers were probably not good enough for the top flight and, apart from buying three or four players in the summer of 1950, seemed unwilling to spend the money necessary to keep them there.
After two seasons of struggle, they were relegated in the third. Dodgin was given another season in charge but mid table in 1952-53 was not good enough and in the autumn of 1953 he was on his way, first to Brentford and then Sampdoria.
From 1961 until his retirement in 1972, he was associated in various capacities with Bristol Rovers. Dodgin always claimed that he was unlucky at Fulham, Haynes and Robson were just breaking through, but not soon enough. He did not help his own cause, however, letting the popular Len Quested move to Huddersfield and playing his own son, Bill junior.
About Grandad from Fulham as well:
In the chaos that followed Robson’s sacking in November 1968, Johnny Haynes took over the reins temporarily, but he had no desire to fill the role on a permanent basis.
On the Maestro’s recommendation, his friend and former Fulham defender, Bill Dodgin junior, took the job the next month, the second time a father and son had managed the Cottagers.
After leaving Fulham for a second time in 1964, Dodgin had won plaudits for his coaching skills, first at Millwall but especially at QPR where his partnership with Alec Stock lifted Rangers from the Third to the First Divisions.
There was little he could do to save Fulham from a second relegation in 12 months, and so the Cottagers kicked off Dodgin’s first full season in the Third Division for the first time in almost 40 years.
Open attacking football was the only way Dodgin knew how to play and since the nucleus of the side had First Division experience, the policy worked at a lower level. Within two years, promotion was won and but for a home defeat on the final day, the Third Division title would have come Fulham’s way.
This same attacking policy did not work back in Division Two in 1971-2 and relegation was on the agenda until the final matches and the controversial loan signing of Alan Mullery. Despite beating the drop, Dodgin was shown the door by chairman Tommy Trinder, much to the chagrin of the supporters. In his subsequent career, at Brentford and Northampton, Dodgin enjoyed success in the lower divisions by sticking to his attacking principles. For a few months in 1994, by then in his sixties, he was back at the Cottage as youth development officer but this role ended with the club’s relegation that summer.
About Great-Grandad, comparing him to Matt Busby – he wasn’t quite that good…:
http://www.findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_qn4158/is_19991022/ai_n14282059
Finally, a good quote from Jackie Graham about Grandad:
http://www.legendspublishing.net/cultbees2.html
My favourite quote from my grandad is the following:
“At times I think I’m too much of a liberal. I think you’ve got to be a bit of a fascist with women and footballers.”
Anyone interested in coming with me to the Ireland vs. Argentina game on the 30th September at the Rugby World Cup this year? Tickets are £25. Should be a good game as well.
“23 Magnaville Road,
Bushey Heath,
Hertfordshire,
WD12 1PN
5.6.99
Dear Sam,
Thanks for the letter and the pictures. They are very good. Luke didn’t find a secret area on might and Magic. It is actually the Supreme Temple of Baa which is part of a very important quest. It is full of priests and devils and I wandered around in there for weeks before I realized that all I needed to do was jump through a gap in a wall and run like hell! I have discovered what to do on Tomb Raider 3 and I will show you when I next see you.
From your best friend
Oliver.”
He still is, you know…
met her 11 months ago the day before yesterday (that being the 5th of March 2007). We have been together ever since and I love her. I love her dearly. What I feel for her, I will never be able to describe. She is wonderful and made my life worth living. I would not be here to type this if it wasn’t for her. She is 5ft of beauty and brains. Thick curly brown hair down to just above her shoulders, that’s perfect to run your hands through. A smile that lights up an entire room. A fantastic sense of humour. Everything I’ve ever wanted. And it’s mine.
We met in Germany. In Stuttgart, to be precise. She stood out from the others. Firstly, she was a lot more attractive. Secondly, she was a lot quieter. I struck up a rapport with her. She interested me greatly. It seemed to me that she had a lot to say and a lot of pain, but that she was trying to live her life. We first kissed in the Wilhelma Tiergarten. I remember it distinctly. We had gone off hand in hand, just chatting away without a care in the world. Then suddenly something clicked. Certainly in me anyway. I had to take her somewhere quiet. I needed to kiss her. This was on a Monday. The Friday before we had almost kissed in an Eiscafe, but some angry little man had ushered us away from our private little spot. Just outside the toilets. So romantic. Anyway, I needed to find somewhere private. We wandered to where the polar bears were kept, which was a long way out of the way of anywhere else. Just as I was about to move in, someone, I can’t remember whether we knew them or not, appeared. FUCK. Opportunity lost. We started walking back down towards the main part of the zoo and I stopped and turned round. This was my moment. I moved in and I could see her doing the same. Our lips met and I got the most FANTASTIC feeling I have ever felt. Elation on a scale greater than I ever thought possible. Greater than Jonny Wilko’s winning drop goal in the Rugby World Cup Final. Greater than seeing Muse live (is it obvious that not a lot of really good things have happened to me?). Completely brilliant. I felt a whole new person. That was 11 months ago yesterday. That is still the best moment of my entire life. When I first kissed Victoria Elizabeth Anne Hook. Every time I kiss her, I get the same sensation. Like being on top of the world. No-one will ever replace her. No-one will ever make me feel like this again.
“And the first time ever I kissed your mouth,
I felt the earth move,
Like the trembling heart of a captive bird,
That was there at my command”
The first months of our relationship were fantastic. We did all the things that couples do. Sent each other letters. Went to the cinema. Went places together. I have a whole box of things that I received. I remember the first time we met up after Germany. I had stayed on for another week, which had been prearranged. I have never wanted so much to get home. I missed her so so so so so so so so so so so so so much. All I could think about was her. I met her the day after we got back. I was a nervous wreck. Would she turn up? Would she still feel the same? Would she still want a relationship? I started well, and just got better. She was there when I arrived. She smiled at walked up to me. Owing to the foots height difference between us. She stood up on the tips of her toes and kissed me. I got that feeling again. We went to Costa. I can’t remember if she had anything. To be honest that whole day feels like a blur. I was over the moon. Finally, things appeared to be going my way. We came back here and spent a whole day in each other’s arms. From that day onwards, I have been completely and utterly in love.
“I could see whomever ever I choose,
But nothing, I said nothing, can take away these blues,
‘Cos nothing compares to you…”
I have done the following new things:
1) Cooked viki a meal. I think she liked it.
2) Seen Seth Lakeman live-Awesome
3) Seen Regina Spektor live-Awesome also
4) Seen Russell Brand live-Funny as fuck.
5) Sent someone flowers…
6) Actually had a valentine…
7) been happy.
I have done the following old things:
1) Played in the snow with Emm.
2) Ummm…
3) that’s about it.
Hmm. Like most things at the moment, I don’t know why i did this. It just felt like the right thing to do. I lack an aim again. Oh well. FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! I don’t know why i typed that. What is the fucking point, you know what I mean? This whole fucking world is fucked. Too many problems for anyone to deal with. Latest is that people want to ban cluster bombs. A great idea, and one that I am extremely proud to say that this country supports. Cluster bombs are indiscrimate and dangerous weapons. The aerial equivalent of a flamethrower. But the US doesn’t care about that. God, I fucking hate that country. I mean, there’s retarded, and then there’s American. Serisously. I can’t even articulate how much I loathe that one nation. I was learning recently (steady on!) about what US political commentators call “iron triangles”. And they’re where all the power lies. Lobbyists and administration officials and members of congressional committees team up in what appears to be one big session of mutual fellatio, in order to maintain the status quo. And the main example of this abhorrent system is the military industry complex. Members of Congress keep defence spending up, so the companies can get fucking heaps and heaps on money and then its the administrations job to find places to fire these fucking lovely new bombs, and send these new planes, and kill more innocent people, who are only in the army because they can’t afford another profession. I don’t know about you, but knowing that makes me want to take a gun to my head. What is the point?
But if we ignore that MASSIVE FUCKING ELEPHANT in the room that makes my life a misery, I’m alrite, ta, thanks for asking. I am in love with the girl of my dreams, and I have some fucking quality friends, who I really do love. “They say the family of the 21st century is made up of friends not relatives” I think I have the best family around.
