Blodge

met her 11 months ago the day before yesterday (that being the 5th of March 2007). We have been together ever since and I love her. I love her dearly. What I feel for her, I will never be able to describe. She is wonderful and made my life worth living. I would not be here to type this if it wasn’t for her. She is 5ft of beauty and brains. Thick curly brown hair down to just above her shoulders, that’s perfect to run your hands through. A smile that lights up an entire room. A fantastic sense of humour. Everything I’ve ever wanted. And it’s mine.

We met in Germany. In Stuttgart, to be precise. She stood out from the others. Firstly, she was a lot more attractive. Secondly, she was a lot quieter. I struck up a rapport with her. She interested me greatly. It seemed to me that she had a lot to say and a lot of pain, but that she was trying to live her life. We first kissed in the Wilhelma Tiergarten. I remember it distinctly. We had gone off hand in hand, just chatting away without a care in the world. Then suddenly something clicked. Certainly in me anyway. I had to take her somewhere quiet. I needed to kiss her. This was on a Monday. The Friday before we had almost kissed in an Eiscafe, but some angry little man had ushered us away from our private little spot. Just outside the toilets. So romantic. Anyway, I needed to find somewhere private. We wandered to where the polar bears were kept, which was a long way out of the way of anywhere else. Just as I was about to move in, someone, I can’t remember whether we knew them or not, appeared. FUCK. Opportunity lost. We started walking back down towards the main part of the zoo and I stopped and turned round. This was my moment. I moved in and I could see her doing the same. Our lips met and I got the most FANTASTIC feeling I have ever felt. Elation on a scale greater than I ever thought possible. Greater than Jonny Wilko’s winning drop goal in the Rugby World Cup Final. Greater than seeing Muse live (is it obvious that not a lot of really good things have happened to me?). Completely brilliant. I felt a whole new person. That was 11 months ago yesterday. That is still the best moment of my entire life. When I first kissed Victoria Elizabeth Anne Hook. Every time I kiss her, I get the same sensation. Like being on top of the world. No-one will ever replace her. No-one will ever make me feel like this again.

“And the first time ever I kissed your mouth,
I felt the earth move,
Like the trembling heart of a captive bird,
That was there at my command”

The first months of our relationship were fantastic. We did all the things that couples do. Sent each other letters. Went to the cinema. Went places together. I have a whole box of things that I received. I remember the first time we met up after Germany. I had stayed on for another week, which had been prearranged. I have never wanted so much to get home. I missed her so so so so so so so so so so so so so much. All I could think about was her. I met her the day after we got back. I was a nervous wreck. Would she turn up? Would she still feel the same? Would she still want a relationship? I started well, and just got better. She was there when I arrived. She smiled at walked up to me. Owing to the foots height difference between us. She stood up on the tips of her toes and kissed me. I got that feeling again. We went to Costa. I can’t remember if she had anything. To be honest that whole day feels like a blur. I was over the moon. Finally, things appeared to be going my way. We came back here and spent a whole day in each other’s arms. From that day onwards, I have been completely and utterly in love.

“I could see whomever ever I choose,
But nothing, I said nothing, can take away these blues,
‘Cos nothing compares to you…”